-evyette-

2007-04-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

Love knows no distances and is timeless.

2007-03-27T01:28:00.000+08:00

JOY

Ecclesiastes 5:20 (NKJV) For he will not dwell unduly on the days of his life, because God keeps him busy with the joy of his heart.

It's been a long long time since I blogged, yet the walk with God seems like it just started yesterday. Recently life has been a roller coaster going through torrents of emotional upheavel, especially at work. But God is faithful & He showed me the verse. I begin to snapped out of the cycle of feeling unhappy and helpless towards people and uncontrollable situation. Moreover God showed me that family members are the most important people in our life to love and treasure. (Like a book I read) We gotta RESPECT THE BAD DAYS and stop whining. Another translation of Eccl 5:20 (CEV) says

God will keep you so happy that you won't have time to worry about each day

It's time to wipe away those tears and sulking attitude but to get alive and to life the purpose of God... God purposed that we should be busy with the joy He has for us. That is why we can love God to the extent that we don't even know why. My brother just fall out of love. May the love of God touched and beautify his world when he gets to know Jesus.

In Jesus Name, Amen.

Beloved Friends...

The pre-requisite of loving yourself & breaking free from self-condemnation is to believe that God has made you beautiful.

Life is ugly without God.

The most beautiful people are those with God living in them.

God smiles & says, "You are beautiful" because He wants you to know that

you make a difference to lives.

2007-01-20T12:13:00.000+08:00

God listens with His heart.

2006-12-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

Evyette, Evyette, Wake up.

2006-10-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

Dear God,
it feels kind of sad when things have to end this way. But God I believe that, You have Your plans. Probably, it did not end. But it is the start of a new beginning. Help me to trust in You Lord, everyday & even in times when it goes beyond my understanding. Holy Spirit conquer me with Your great love and may you be too.

In Jesus Name,
Amen.

2006-10-30T01:21:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord, come and touch my heart tonight.
Bring me back to the first love.
Bring me back to happy days where
Your presence welcome me each morning and
Your love brings me through the day.
You strengthen me till night comes.
My heart rejoices that You always see me through,
Promise me You will never forsake me
You give me the grace to abide in You
as You abide in me all the days of my life.

2006-10-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

After You

Place your heart inside my soul...

Your love is so great that nothing could contain.

Yet You chose to place your heart in my troubled soul.

I love You with my all, my heart, my soul.

Yet there's a part whom I can't let go.

A heart that's ever true one that's after you...

2006-10-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

Slow Down

Sometimes we just have to make an effort to slow down, to feel God's footsteps walking beside us.

2006-09-24T16:18:00.000+08:00

My Vows

24 Sept 2006:

This day Lord I renew my vow to You that I will always treasure Your presence, all the days of my life.

2006-09-17T00:46:00.000+08:00

The greatest distraction is not in the distraction but being distracted away from God.

2006-09-16T11:02:00.000+08:00

CHOOSING GOD'S BEST (Part 1)

To Wait!

God always saves His best for those who are willing to wait.

Our flesh is impatient. But God is patient. Love is patient. That is why true love waits. Our capacity to love as imperfect human beings is imperfect. We are all in the making to be better gifts to our future spouses. However, all good gifts comes with challenges depending if you're ready to handle it or not. If you are willing to wait, you will experience tremendous joy. Haven't adults warn children that green apples are sour and ripe apples are sweet.

The blessing of the LORD, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it." (Proverbs 10:22)

I read somewhere that, it is in heaven that we will experience the greatest blessing God has to give us - being in His presence for all eternity.

''Dear Lord, I thank you for the grace to wait for Your best.

I pray that as I am in the waiting, make me the only one who is worthy to walk with him (my future spouse who probably is also in the waiting) as covenant partners; to help each other to receive the greatest blessing in life ---- an unbroken communion with you in the realm of eternity. In Jesus name, Amen.''

2006-09-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

I spent half of my life time looking for you...
Yet a life time is not too long to be your best friend...

2006-09-10T11:55:00.000+08:00

Dear Friends, the Bible says in Romons 8:38-39 "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

The following is a stanza of poem which really touches me. It had been found penciled on the wall of a patient’s room in an insane asylum, the general opinion was that this inmate had written the epic in moments of sanity.

Could we with ink the ocean fill
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade,
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry,
Nor could the scroll contain the whole
Though stretched from sky to sky

Dear Lord as I examine my heart. It could not be an ocean so vast and so wide. Yet You choose to pour what that could not be contain in an ocean into me. Come and stretch me on the inside, let me have a big heart to contain more of Your love today and forevermore. In moments of insanity, allow me to be lost in Your love, in the midst of confusion let me be free in my soul. In times where life is running dry, refill me and wash over me with Your oceans of love. In Jesus name. Amen.

2006-08-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

Maybe it is not suppose to meant to be.

2006-08-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

Lost without your love

Tonight what best describes my feeling is the particular song by the group 'BREAD':

Lost and all alone. I always thought that I could make it on my own. Since you left I hardly make it through the day. My tears get in the way. And I need you back to stay. I wander through the night. And search the world to find the words to make it right. All I want is just the way it used to be. With you here close to me. I've got to make you see. That I'm lost without your love. Life without you isn't worth the trouble of. I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel. A touch without a feel I can't believe it's real...And someday soon I'll wake. And find my heart won't have to break. Yes I'm lost without your love. Life without you isn't worth the trouble of. All I want is just the way it used to be. I need you here with me. Oh darlin' can't you see...If we had love before. We can have it back once more.

Eversince I started working, God begun a preparation work to stretch me in my emotional capacity. Compared to those days in Bible school, I felt I've stop asking myself what I can do to love God more and more. I literally felt that I may have backsliden. I always have this conviction that backsliding doesn't start when you stop going to church. It starts when you do not love God today more than you love Him yesterday. I was crying during the last praise song in service. I ask God for His forgiveness; I question myself if I have distant away from God, the Father who loves us while we were still sinners. Suddenly, straight after I told God that I am sorry, the figure of Jesus stepped in and stand in the gap. His presence bridge-d the distant.

I learnt that the only way to love God more and more each day is through Jesus.

2006-07-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

Giving Up

Phil 3:9 (NLV) "I want to be as one with Him..."

Even unto death Jesus did not give up on us. God who is perfect did not give up on the imperfect. Therefore we shouldn't give up on ourselves or our brethen in any situations.

In fact during the times when it seems that we tried almost everything and that nothing seems to work, that is when your breakthrough is the NEAREST! The number of things that you have yet tried, narrowed down and soon you realise you had found the answer...

That is only if you never give up!

Phil 3: 12 (NKJV) "Not that I have already attained, or am already perfect; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me."

2006-07-15T03:32:00.000+08:00

Song of Solomon 5 : 2

I sleep but my heart waketh...

And you?

2006-07-02T12:45:00.000+08:00

Habbakuk 2:2-3

The LORDs Second Reply

Then the LORD said to me, "Write my answer in large, clear letters on a tablet, so that a runner can read it and tell everyone else. But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed.

In my life, the most important decisions that I seek God, the answer I got was to wait. But God has never failed me though many times the anxiety of waiting makes me feel uncomfortable. God has lay aside the best for you and me.

It will happen.

2006-06-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

Today, God told me that He loves me, and I don't have to feel unloved.

2006-06-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

Who Indeed

A little beat

A little skip

Who's the one?

A mystery indeed.

And as I pray

Who do I meet?

Can't help it

As I sink in deep.

2006-06-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

Why is there a skull and a cross?

2006-06-18T17:28:00.000+08:00

Somebody said this:

Defensiveness is always an indication that something about your point of view is not quite on point.

2006-06-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

How do I love You more?

2006-05-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

You & you

My mind is filled with You & you & you & some others

You & you & you & you & some others

You & you & you

You & you

Finally its only You who I desire the most

2006-05-23T06:31:00.000+08:00

A Pure Heart (A)

A pure heart is one that is filled with the God kind of love.

Mt 5: 8 (NIV)

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

1 Jn 4:12 (NIV)

No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

A Pure Heart (Part B)

Osmosis of God's love

A pure heart is a God-size vaccum overflowing with God's love.

Nothing can overflow unless something is being poured out.

In the days of drought, Elijah poured water on the altar on Mount Carmel. Mary poured expensive oil onto Jesus feet and wipe His feet with her hair. Mircales happened whenever ordinary people starts the action of extravagent pouring. The Bible says that Jesus poured His Soul unto the cross. By that we received an overflowing abundance of zoe life. The Bible says that love has been poured out by the Holy Spirits into our hearts. I remember a Pastor said something like this, do not be a Christian who trickle or drizzle drops of offering to God; but pour out what you have to offer for God. I believe the key to have the presence of God and His love to overflow into your life is really to start pouring out your life and your love to others.

Osmosis is the process whereby God's love will move from a higher concentration to a region lower concentartion across a permeable membrane of loving others first...

2006-05-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

Have you seen God?

God lives in your heart, the place where love dwells. For the Bible says God is love. If you are seeking for Him, but to no avail, seek to love someone the way He loves you. And you will see Him.

1 John 4:12

No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

2006-05-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

Seek the Person

Many times in our Christian walk we neglect the person of God. If one day God were not to answer you, will you continue to seek for Him? Many times God speaks to us but we did not answer Him. Yet, He is faithful and He doesn't give up. Today if your spiritual life has run dry, it is not because God has forsaken you. It is because you focus too much on seeking a response or a solution but neglect to seek Him in person.

Heb 13: 8

"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and for ever"

If God says He loves You. He does.

It's all in present tense.

2006-05-18T21:19:00.001+08:00

Heb 12:29

"... For our God is a consuming fire"

Forgive me as I drifted away from you

For Your mercy endures forever

Consume me as I draw near to you

For You are a consuming fire

Let it burn

Anoint me to carry Your burden

Consume me
Consume me

As I walk with You to eternity

2006-05-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

Heb 12:29

"... For our God is a consuming fire"

Forgive me as I drifted away from you

For Your mercy endures forever

Consume me as I draw near to you

For You are a consuming fire

Let it burn

Anoint me to carry Your burden

Consume me
Consume me

As I walk with You to eternity

2006-05-01T16:39:00.000+08:00

God's love is simply beautiful because I simply do not deserve it.

2006-04-25T06:57:00.000+08:00

The human mind is a battle field. Negative thoughts, doubts and fear are land mines. Stepping any one of them triggers off destruction.

2006-04-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

Night

The world comes to a silence. Night time seems lifeless as the atmosphere grew to a stillness. At this very moment who will I be thinking of? Loneliness has not crept in; it doesn't has a place here in me. My heart. Where God lives. And God is omnipresent. Logically there shouldn't be anything missing. Yet tonight my heart says something's not there. And as I dwell in this state I wrote:

As the night ages

As the morning waits

Where would my heart be?

Somewhere...

The old memories replayed

and the present dissipates

And where would my mind go to?

But You.

2006-03-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

"Book-keeping"

A day to account for our stewardship...

And I saw a great white throne, and him that sat on it, from whose face the earth and the heaven fled away; and there was found no place for them. And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works. (Rev 20:11-12)

The accounting equation: Assets = Liabilities + Shareholder's Equity

A CGL is likened as an accounting manager of God. Our assets are God's people. Whether a CG grows or not depends on the members andtheir spiritual progress and development. Our liabilities are whatever we short change them by our insensitiveity to the Holy Spirit, our disobedience, lack of vision and initiative, our inability to disciple them in spirit and in truth; and most importantly the agape love we owe them. The Shareholder's Equity is closely related to how much we sow in their lives according to God's will in His Word. If you have no idea, the currency we are talking about here is faith. Faith is the currency of exchange in heaven. The exchange rate is determine by our revelation of the cross. How we deny (die to) ourselves and take up the cross to follow Jesus. Our ZS and Pastors are like auditors. While God is our best Fatherly boss, the Son of God is our advocate (lawyer) and the Holy Spirit is our divine consultant.

Is this a revelation or what?

*winks*

2006-03-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

Where Are You?

Genesis 3:9 Then the LORD God called to Adam and said to him, “Where are you?”

God calls out to many of His sons and daughters. Where are you today?

~A fool for Christ~

2006-03-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

I was trying hard to practise the guitar to worship God but somehow it still sound very awful. Feeling dry and thirsty, I started strumming A chord, D chord and begin to worship God and cry out to Jeusu singing sciptires form Psalm. The atmosphere was still, the presence of God was very minimal but I continued to press in. I felt that there was something that started to stir up inside. It felt like it was so subtle, just like the coming of a tidal wave many kilometres away from a seahore. Then suddenly, I felt the presence of God thickening and swpet me away. Tears just streamed down. Its unexplainable but at that point I just know that I needed Jesus alot. Next, I felt through the Holy Spirit that the eprson of Jesus was in my room. My room's door was opened but I couldn't care more or less if my dad (who went out) or my brother (who was sleeping in his own room)were to see. Before I realised I was being embraced by Jesus who was standing, as I burried my tear-stained face into His belly. It all happened in the realm of the spirit, out of my expectation. It lasted for 5 to 10mins but I had the knowing that Jesus was with me always even in times when I wasn't aware. As I was being hugged and comforted, I kept strumming with the broken chords and worshiped Him until I finish crying. After I got my composure back and renewed by the peace and strength form God, the Lord showed me this verse:

Psalm 32: 8 " I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye."

I am not a perfect leader. I cannot slove all problems but God can. I too can feel tired at times in carrying so much. But I hope you all can always share with me. Because I want to reassure you that God loves you even at the times when you are struggling and not feeling His presence in your prayers. And I know we all have to slove our problems eventually. God will not erase it all off, but He gives you the grace to pull through, if you will surrender all of yourself to Him to work freely in you. He gave us as sisters and brothers in Christ to encourage one another to go on until Jesus returns.

God blessed!

2006-03-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

The Bible in Genesis 24 talks about how Abraham had asked his servant to find a wife for Issac. The servant did certain things that amazes me. He prayed to God before he set out his journey (Gen24:12). Then in the middle of the jourbey, he prayed again (Gen24:15). Then after when he found the right girl, he bowed down to worship God for the prayers answered. One thing that I got to learn was that we always pray hard for God to answer prayers, btu how many of us actually go to God and worshipped him intensely as a sign of thanksgiving after the prayers had been answered? We often say "thank God, Praise the Lord" but those are just verbal thanksgiving. This servant of Abraham has a different spirit. He was obedient and thoroughly dependant on God. No wonder, even before he finished his prayer to God, it got answered. (Gen 24:15) God knew that he is faithful. And God always honour His promises to faithful people.

2006-03-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

Today during prayer meeting Jesus told me that He was always with me. Even when I was alone and that I didn't realise it myself. This explains why I felt a sense of gentleness increasingly surrounding me for the past two weeks. I mostly was on my own, yet I wasn't because God was always with me. Its near to 130am, my spirit is still so awake. I think I have once again fallen in love with Christ. Wow! I don't mind to have sleepless nights if His love can be so true and alive that I can't sleep!

2006-03-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

Jesus, I want to know you again...

After going through a period of tiredness I have a deeper realisation of the importance of walking closely with God. We always think that missing out a prayer or Bible reading is okay and won't kill us. Yes, it won't kill us but it short changes your "long -term" spiritual health. Just like not sleeping fr a few nights won't kill. Yet after pro-long lack of sleep, the impact sets in. Yesterday God made me feel that I have to have a fresh experience with Him again. It makes me feel like knowing Him again. In fact that is so true for all things, espcially things that you love doing, people you love seeing. You never get tired of them and you just fall in love with them again everytime you encounter it. Well, God is indeed merciful towards our unfaithfulness. Though there will never be second chances in life. God will open new opportunities to us.

I think it is a very romantic thing to fall in love with God all over again and again and again... till eternity sets in.

2006-03-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

The best songs that you can ever write is one that you never had the intention to write until at the end of it you realise it is one.

2006-02-22T02:03:00.000+08:00

I really "hate" it when I am tired. There is no revelation coming in at times like this. So I pray that none of us will be so tired that we start to drift away from God.

2006-02-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

The Best Proposal?

While I was on bus today, suddenly I thought of this proposal line:

"It is a mystery when Jesus will be coming back... But we do know that it is near. In the last days like this, would you grant me the honour to be His representative to serve you, to love you faithfully on earth till we enter eternity? Rest assured that I have prepared a place for you to live in ~ that is my heart. The Holy Spirit lives there and He can tesify my genuine love for you. Will you be my bride?"

With a pair of sincere eyes...charming boyish smile...a bunch of fresh white roses (symbolic of purity& eternal love) ... a clam gentle loving voice...plus the "one knee-down" posture. Who could reject a proposal like this?

2006-02-18T10:25:00.000+08:00

MEMOIRS OF FOOD

Square cookies
The weirdest and sweetest thing I ever cooked was to bake square cookies for someone. It was a disaster because I tried to save time by "sqeezing" many drops of cookies mixture onto the baking tray. In the end, as they are spaced too closely, all of them merge into 1 giant piece! I (being "clever") resolve the problem by cutting the giant piece into squares. Very dotz dotz dotz. The funny thing was when his mother ate, she commented that she ate something of the similar taste before. I found out its because she couldn't recognise cookies when they became square in shape. More dotz dotz dotz.

Jolly-bean Pancake
During the days of SOT managing the tight budget was always a tricky feat. Jolly-bean pancakes used to taste a whole lot awful to me. But it was the cheapest and most filling "quick bite" that I could ever "pamper" myself in the midst of rushing from tuition assignments to assignments. There was once when I told God in my heart, "God, what an awful tasting pancake! I pray for better food in future... but nevertheless I thank You that I still had this as food as your providence in times like this." After expressing my gratitude to God I felt tears forming in my eyes. I know it was something that touched God. Gradually, I begin to find that actually it doesn't taste bad at all. And it was on Tuesday, I felt kind of defeated momentarily due to job search frustration. Then I pass by the shop and I had a crave for the pancake. Not because that I was hungry but it was something that reminded me of fighting on and that God is always my provider. It was the fighting spirit behind which i wanted to recapture into me.

Late Night Dinners
These few days I started to have late dinners again. It's an irony that sometimes I feel I can tolerate the worst attitudes of non-believers and love them by God's grace; yet for my own family members seems that I somehow had difficulty in communicating with them lovingly. Infact sometimes I kind of miss them when I am the busiest in serving ministry. Wednesday night as I was having a past mid-night dinner, it may sound exaggerating but it really warms my heart to eat home-cooked food. I always savour the love that is behind all the effort in the cooking. My dad is not the type of man who will give flowers to express his love. Neither is he a good cook compared to my mum. But I do not know why recently whatever he cooks I feel it taste nice. Definitely he always makes a mess out of the kitchen and sometimes he may be clumsy with spilling things (I inherited that , opps!). But when it comes to cutting and peeling and cooking he does it patiently, seldom see him frustrated. What would made a man who used to be a mechanic to cook for the family? Gee, that's kind of sweet for someone unromantic! It's love adding an ultimate special fragrance to the food! I always feel that somehow food prepared with love and joy always taste better! Hmm... Patience and devoted attention does make a man attractive...haha...

Garlic & Onions

I have phobia eating garlic and onions. I just feel the slight urge to puke especially when I confront it raw. But I have to admit they do enhance the taste to dishes. I gather that sometimes there are certain things you just don't like but they enhance your walk with God Being accountable to things which may challenge your past beliefs about your freedom, being increasingly committed, loving people you find it difficult to love etc. Ironically I do like hot garlic bread, BK onion rings and fried shallots! Accountability protects, true freedom is not in ourselves as our old man is bounded by the curse of sin, commitment deepens your relationship, when you love God you can have a love that accept even your enemies.

Sometimes all we have to do is to consider it in the different light, taste things in a new way.

2006-02-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

I read Dr. Robb Thompson's "daily sucess key". It says

Your Heart Is The Soil Where Your Thoughts Become Seeds That Create Your Future.

Proverbs 4:23 (NKJV)“Keep your heart with all diligence, For out of it spring the issues of life.”

Leaders can never be offended by what members comment or live their lives. Not offended doesn't mean they can't be hurt & heart-broken thousands of times. A leader who loves much has to run the risks of being open to vulnerability. If you noticed how Jesus' wounds look like when He was whipped, it reflected the extent we sin and also to the extent that He loved us to endure all that. But a leader always has God's grace to forgive, to forget and draw strength and love from God. If you love God, love your leaders.

2006-02-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

Sometimes...

I just don't know what to say.

2006-02-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

To Die

This is probably the 100th time I am saying to the devil, 'Evyette is dead, dead on the cross".

Isa 54:17 "no weapon forged against you will prevail,..."

The key in overcoming spiritual attacks is not aiming to win.

But it is to die as a dead man in Christ.

For Jesus alone has won the victory.

How can you win something which has been won?

It is good to die young in Christ.

Let the resurrected you live a newness of life in Christ.

2006-02-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

Losing Patience...

1 Cor 13: 4 to 8
Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails...

Just when I thought that I can love somebody with God's love, God showed me that I loved imperfectly...

I do not know why it is always the case that I find it difficult to be patient to my own mother. I always wish that my mum will be somebody gentle, patient, undersatnding and encouraging. She loves me. Really really loves me. But she is not perfect just like me and I believe alot fo times she wish that our conversation will be closer as mother-daughter. Yet again, she is the only person whom I lose my patience the easiest. Everytime when I lose my patience to her I feel very bad because I feel i am like a bad testimony. Today as I saw this verse I realised that I do not know how to love my mum because the first thing God says is that "Love is patience". I can love my cell group members with God's love but not to my own mum. What an oxymoron!

Dear Lord Jesus, forgive me for losing my patience. I pray that you will give me the grace to love my mum with patience~ loving her the way You love me always.

In Jesus name. Amen.

2006-02-10T00:14:00.000+08:00

Not Getting Younger?

I must fight against the thought that I am not getting younger. Not that I am deceiving myself but numbers don't lie. Not that I'm afraid of being old and losing my memory and my physical attributes detoriating... Not that I want to rush into courtship...In fact God is kind to me that I look younger than my actual age! I am at my prime age, I should serve more and now should be my top form, I should go through more difficulties as I am single and energetic! At home I am an introvert. (Alot of people think I am joking when I tell them that actually I have a nature that is introvert) Sometimes being extrovert to others is a choice and consicious effort trained over time to stir up the atmosphere. Sacrifice of Praise. My mum often attached the adjective "useless" to me, and my brother has been using that to provoke me. It hurts. She feels that "naive" is my good friend and it follows wherever I go to. It husts too. She feels that I cannot do great things. That hurts by the way. I always thought that mothers should be encouraging and gentle and loving in everyway. But God showed me that she does loves me but in an imperfect humane way. My dad always joked to my mum that she is really the most "stupid" one because she married a ("stupid"??) man like him. To me though my dad's education is low, BUT he is not "stupid". In fact my dad being the most unromantic guy (never gave flowers to my mum), was romantic (from my pointview) when he said that sentence to my mum. He feels his indebted as he married a good wife--- no other choice that can be compared. In fact when he said that he is clever! Now I know why my mum is impatient...it is because my dad is more patient. (The level of patience may after all be related directly to the degree of cleverness haha...) The Bible says even when a fool keeps his silence he is considered having perspective. Quite "Biblical" huh...haha. Just like Jesus is patient and the disciples (forming the church body~ Bride of Christ) are not that patient. Hmmm... A patient man is somehow attractive~ Quick to listen (attentively) and slow to speak (in a wise manner and also gives others a chance speak). Haha... Have I met someone like that?

2006-02-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

Dying the Worst Possible Death

DIE TO YOURSELF

Today's Bible study is somewhat interesting. We came across the follwing:

Jesus was the ultimate example of humility. He emptied Himself of all glory and divine splendor and took the form of a bond servant. He came in the likeness of Man, with an ordinary appearance. He humbled Himself. He endured death the worst possible way---- in shame and humiliation.

As I went through it, I was doing a self-evaluation. Of course NO ONE can be compared to Jesus but everyone of us ultimately should be Christ-like. To be close to God you need obedience. To be closer to God you need sacrifice. To walk into the fullness of Christ you need to die to yourself daily...

LOST IN WORSHIP

It reminded me the service last week with Delirious?, I was so lost in worship that I reached to a point where my heart was so in love with Jesus that it cried out to Jesus and say, "God, I am willing and prepared to die for You in this moment where Your presence is so strong and so overwhelming." Indeed I was shock as it was the 1st time I reacted this way...

SEEK THE PERSON OF GOD

Today God spoke to me during the Bible Study, to get ready for "dying a worst possible death". I was thinking in my heart what could that be? I can no longer recall how I was before; as the old me had died. The recent most "sacrifice" was to quit Choir. It made me realised that I must NOT like singing about God (my ministry) more than singing TO GOD (the Person of God). What was it that can caused "dying a worst possible death?"

DISCOVERY!! DISCOVERY!!!!!

As I was talking to Annie Toh I was so happy that she is my NTU senoir! She fully understands the feeling to cry daily in university days when the course is so taxing and stressful. I cry even on bus goign back home and I was very intimidated by the professors and students. I didn't have a friend and worse I didn't know God back then. University life was very traumatic for me as I practically always fail in my modules and I lost every interest. That is why up till today I resist accounting alot. Then my memory was brought back to 2 days ago as I was looking at my dusty accounting textbooks. I had the urge to read it again but I didn't touch it. Another switch in the memory came to yesterday. I came up with two goals fro S23 members: 1) Members to breakthrough family persecution 2) Members to believe in God's given prosperity. I told myself that to do this I had to get a job first before I can prosper.

CONCLUSION

I suspect the "worst possible death" may mean God may be pointing me to accounting? It represents an area of my past failure & defeat. I need to die to my old failures before I can walk into the fullness of God's prosperity.

I sense another struggling?

I need to pray!

God if this is Your will, I pray for open doors and Your grace to go through it!

2006-02-08T02:10:00.000+08:00

EMOTIONS

When we get too emotional; when we cannot help ourselves and follow our emotions, we are opening a door of invitation to un-necessary vulnerability. Sometimes holding on becomes unwise especially when the basis of holding on is built around emotions. Unsanctified emotions comes and goes; destroys and stumbles. The world sees romanticism as uncontrolled and unreserved emotions of love expressed rebelliously; going against traditions and beyond reasoning. There is no logic when we do things because we do not have a choice; or since we love someone so much that we cannot help it. That is selfishness because the subject in question is "we" and not love. Soulish love is selfishness. The Bible says true love is never selfish. To me when a person loves right, he will always have a choice! Emotions have no agenda. They are just like magnifying glasses of your thoughts and inward conditions. As you set apart your emotions unto the Lord, Your walk with God will be more intimate. The healthiest use of emotions are when controlled by the spirit. Instead of wasting all your efforts to prove to somebody that Your love is true (selfish use), why allow God to use it as a channel to show another that God loves; and that God is love.

2006-02-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

Are You Beautiful?

We are inevitably attracted to reach out to God's heart,

simply because...

it is the source of all beauty, that is...

His love.

1 John 4: 16-17 "...God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect..."

True beauty is found in God.

If you live life in God, and God lives in you;

you are beautiful.

2006-02-05T12:03:00.002+08:00

Piecing the Shattered

Life shattered utterly the day sin entered this world...

Romans 5:12

Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned.

Everyone in one part of their life will go through an emotional shatter. Alot of people stuck sitting at the foot of the shattered pieces, traumatised and hurt. I came across an article about an artist who does mosiac art pieces, he said something which goes like that:

"My life was shattered"..."I spent my life piecing it, just like my mosaic pieces"

I thought of myself. I was once broken, the Lord pieced me back bit by bit. Though there may be clear and evident traces of cracks and tiny missing chips of my imperfection, in Him I was transformed into a new piece of art---- God's piece of art! Beauty takes on another perspective; a beauty I will never understand if not for the shattering. Today He is still patiently piecing the missing pieces into my life. As a skillful craftsman He knows every single detail in my life. He restores my brokeness with His unfailing love. He displays and keeps me saftely in one of His galleries with other mosiacs---- who were also once so shattered.

Ps 40:1-2

He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be astounded. They will put their trust in the LORD.

2006-02-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

Had your coffee today??!!

Good sharing of the gosepl is likened to a cup of freshly brewed coffee.

It's fresh!

With revelations.

It's hot!

Never lukewarm.

It perks you up!

To stay awake.

A nice aroma!

Pleasant to the soul.

It stirs your spirit!

To conquer the day.

It's addictive!
Creates continual crave.

2006-02-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

There's nothing really

There's nothing really,

except that...

Life is driving me crazy.

There's nothing really,

except that...

The old excuses are boring me sleepy.

There's nothing really,

except that...

Technology is making me lazy.

There's nothing really,

except that...

Problems are occupying me busy.

There's nothing really,

except that...

Comfort zones are keeping me cosy.

There's nothing really,

except that...

Hurtful words are leaving me teary.

There's nothing really,

except that...

Issues of the heart are making me silly.

There's nothing really...

until...

I know that He cared always.